Like I have said a million times that 2017 was a shit year for me, but I have learned so much from it. I have learned that it is okay not to be okay 100% of the time. I have learned that your family and friends are still there for you and are still the same people even though you might not see them as much as you used to. It is okay to ask for help — I don’t have to do everything myself.
I have learned you do not have to be perfect and you are never going to be (because no one is
except Chris Pratt). I have learned not to let my anger and anxiety get the best of me in moments of frustration — I have to learn to breathe and calm down before I lash out about something small.
I learned happiness is not a destination, it is a mood and it comes and goes just like sad and angry does. It is okay not to be happy 100% of the time.
Happiness is not somewhere to go or a goal to reach, it is a mood and it’s okay to have days where you hate the world even when you have the world.
This past year I kept fighting myself on “I want to be happy, I need to get to place where I’m happy” I was wrong. There is no way I can be happy 100% of the time, but I need to learn to live in the moment and embrace every moment of the happy times.
I found myself so upset that I wasn’t getting to a “happy place” I wasn’t embracing the things the around me everyday that made me happy. I quit my job thinking “oh if I do this it’ll make me happy” I was wrong and lucky enough to be going back to work. I would sleep A LOT because I thought it was better than being awake in an unhappy life. I WAS WRONG. I have a lot going for me — but I get caught up on instagram, Snapchat and Facebook seeing how “perfect” others lives were and I thought to myself, “why can’t I have that?”
However, I have learned that no matter how great people make their life seem online — it probably isn’t perfect, nobody’s is.
I have learned to love myself a little bit more each day and love the life I have. And yes, I have days where I’m sad or angry and wish things were different but I have learned to find one thing that makes me happy each day and to smile at that and remember my life is pretty good.